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Saturday, November 23rd, 2002
3:17 pm - Phantasm: Nightmare
(Note.. this is a new fic that I am working on... first part... ^__^ Enjoy! And please.. comments are welcomed! If I keep up with this, this is going to be a long fic.... ^.^ )

The room was balmy, the curtains still with the absence of a night time breeze. The only sound that filled the room was the labored breathing of the person in the bed, gripped with nightmares, tossing and turning over the rumpled sheets, winding them around his waist. A name fell from the person's lips, mixed with whimpers of despair and the ocassional sob.

Nearby the bed, a tall, elegant man stood, his hair like strands of silver in the light of the moon. He was watching the one in the bed, arms crossed solemnly over his chest, a smirk upon slender lips.

"So this is when you cry..." he whispered softly as he knelt down beside the bed, his flowing silver robe pooling around him. An elegant hand reached forward to rest against a clammy forehead, amethyst eyes fluttering shut as the taller man let out a breath of air and let himself sink.

And swirl.

And dive deep into the boy's mind...

"Why...? Why...?" a small voice said over and over. "You were supposed to save me... Omi... why didn't you save me? You said we'd be together forever but you let me die.. You didn't protect me.. It's your fault I'm dead..."

Tears welled up in blue eyes, reaching out towards the voice, towards the female he knew it was coming from. "I tried!! I tried to save you, Ouka!" he whispered, falling forward to his knees. "I'm sorry...." The words fell from his lips, an admission of his own guilt for an incident that happened over a year ago. To the blonde, it seemed like yesterday. He could still hear her screams, feel her heartbeat slow against his chest, feel the warmth leaving her body as she took her last breath. As she died... "It's my fault..." he whispered through the tears that rolled down his cheeks. "I let you die..."

"That's right, Tsukiyono.. you let her die. You let us die too..." A firm voice entered Omi's world, causing him to look up to find the source, blue eyes meeting violet. "You. Are. A. Failure. I was foolish to think you were capable of doing anything... a child.." The last word was spat out as the man with the vibrant red hair turned around, arms crossed over his chest.

Omi blinked in surprise, reaching up to wipe at his nose. "Aya-kun... you're not dead though. That's not my fault... it's not!"

"You're going to be the death of us all, Omittchi..." another voice added in, a brunette coming into view, his normally soft eyes cold. "You're incompetent... You let her die... You're going to let us die too.. Why did I ever trust you?" The words were accusing, striking deep into Omi's heart and then twisted, hearing them come from someone he thought was his best friend.

"Ken-kun...?" he said softly, getting up to his feet to move towards them, his eyes widening at the details that he saw as he got closer. The usually pale, porcelain skin that was Aya's trademark was stained crimson with the blood that leaked from a deep gash in his neck. Ken was slightly lopsided, his head disfigured by the blast from the gunshot that had pierced the back of his skull. Omi gasped, falling to his knees, his head held in his hands. "It's not my fault... it's not... I've saved you all before... I wouldn't.. let anything happen to-"

"To me, bishonen..?" The lazy drawl was unmistakable as Omi lifted his head again, watching the tall playboy walk towards him, flickering ashes raining down upon his hand as the other flicked his cigarette. He stuck his hand in his pocket, almost casually pulling back the front of his jacket, revealing the ruined mess of his chest, looking as though he had been struck by an explosion, the tattered remains of his shirt melted to the once-golden skin. He smirked, drawing in a lungful of the burning smoke, tendrils of it seeping out through his ruined chest. "Too bad it's all a lie..."

Omi let out a soft whimper, closing his eyes tightly as he shook his head. "This isn't real.." he kept repeating, trying his hardest to believe it. "I wouldn't hurt them.. I wouldn't let them down.." His voice was a soft whisper, hands covering his face, trying to block out the images that were burned into his mind. Of Aya... of Ken... of Yotan... And it was all his fault.

"I'm.. a failure..." he said suddenly, lifting his head, tears of blood rolling down his cheeks, leaving behind tracks of red. "I'm... " He broke off, watching his teammates surround them, the looks on their faces accusing.

"Youre are a failure."

"They were foolish to put you in charge of Kritiker."

"It's your fault!"

"I hate you...."

This last phrase echoed in his mind, spinning, making him dizzy. Omi pitched forward, his head pressed to the ground, his shoulders shaking with his sobs. "Minna-san... Gomen nasai..."

The cool hand was removed from Omi's forehead, the man rising to his feet, a bit unsteady for a moment until he regained his composure. "So this is your fear... this is what plagues your nightmares... How.. interesting..." He chuckled softly, a dry sound in the balmy room. "I'm sure we can figure out so many ways to play with this.... to exploit this..." he whispered, peeling back the sweat-soaked sheets and lifting the nightmare-ravaged blonde into his arms.

"To break you. I will break you Tsukiyono Omi... and I will enjoy the task..." He chuckled again as he disappeared out the open door of the room, making his way quickly through the quiet apartment and out, disappearing into the night.

current mood: accomplished

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Monday, October 28th, 2002
12:05 pm
It's been a while since I wrote in here.. X.X

This is just a note to say that this journal is going to be my home for NaNoWriMo, which I am participating in... Why... I don't know... well.. yes. I do know. I don't write much anymore... and even though I may be writing fanfiction, I'm going to write. I have an idea and I'm going to succeed and get the 50,000 words done.


(na no da?)

Tuesday, September 24th, 2002
1:22 pm - Picking up Peeper
Alright... because someone (featherfire) wants to read more, I'm posting more! ^_^ This is the last bit we really have for Ode to Peeper... It took forever to gte all this together because it was in bits and pieces all over my computer. This is set after Bandana Boy and follows it immediately... after this one is the last bit we actually have, which is Confessions. I think that sometime, we're going to continue this.. and maybe posting things here will give me and Silver the push to get things going again. Anyways! On with the story

Picking up Peeper
Part of 'Ode to Peeper'
Rating: PG
Pairing: hints at Yohji x Schuldich
Warnings: None!
Cuteness ahead! ^_^

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To continue along after this, please go read Confessions. And thus the end of Ode to Peeper... for now... ^_____^

We'll try and continue this!!!


~*Silver and Saiai*~

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12:33 pm - Bandana Boy
Set after 'Ode to Peeper', this is the first meeting between our two heros. Okay.. this chapter is... bland. A bit of background for the two, but not much else, unfortunately.

I promise.. the others get so much better!!!!

As it states at the very beginning.. this is set six years prior to the first bit of 'Ode to Peeper'. Almost a flashback as Schuldich and Yohji remember...

Bandana Boy
part of 'Ode to Peeper'
Rating: G
Spoilers" None!

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12:06 pm - Ode to Peeper
Thus begins a series of shorts that me and Silver worked on... I love this one... It's such a teaser though.. ~chuckles~ This is the prologue to everything that we wrote for this arc... It's still kind of rough, but I had a request to get it out so it could be read.


Ode to Peeper
Yohji x Schuldich
Spoilers: None!
Archive: Ask!

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Sunday, September 15th, 2002
2:28 pm - Would you like a twist of lime?
I can't help but post this one... but first, some background on the story.

This is yet another collaborative fic between myself and Sil.. We write a -lot- together.. ~Points to folder full of documents~ This particular one is from a series we worked on once upon a time. It stemmed from another RP we were in, called Yaoi High School Adventure where we played Yohji and Schuldich from Weiss Kreuz. Another AU piece, set while the pair is in high school.

The series this is from is called "Ode to Peeper" which is a series of shorts centered around Schuldich and Yohji's time in a private school which is where the pair first met. It's now the future, and the pair are looking back at their history and how they came to be where they are. I'm going to be posting these in no particular order as I get them all fixed up. ^.^ So thus... here you go...

Pairing: Yohji + Schuldich
Spoilers: None
Rating: PG-13
Includes: Shonen-ai, limey action, humour, sweetness


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current mood: blank

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2:02 pm - An RP scene... ^.^
I promised that I would post my writings.. and slowly but surely, I'm going to be doing so.

This is from a scene in an RP that I did with my best friend, Sil. She played Schuldich, and I took on the part of an original character named Miki. The scene for this RP was set in a college, and is very AU. Schuldich and Miki are casual friends, as you can see, and they put together this scene for their Drama class.

The scene in question, if you are unfamiliar with the play, is from Shakespeare's Much Ado About Nothing, one of my favorite plays.. ^.^ So thus.... this is created. Enjoy!

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current mood: blank

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Friday, September 13th, 2002
5:57 pm - [Consumed am I]
Sublime emotions flood my heart, my soul (so consumed am I by your eyes and the sound)
Of you saying my name, saying you love me (and by all Gods present, I love you too my)
Darling, my sweet, never thought anyone would sweep me off my feet
Carry me away to a darker place
Indulge my desires, put my heart to a frantic pace
Trying to win this race, this dash, the pounce and the smile...
Never really needed to try because we both won the moment our hands were held
Fingers interlocked like pieces of our unique puzzle
Binding and hardening, no hammer could break (and I pray that neither me nor you break our)
Hearts of gold of love of peace
I'll just close my eyes and feel myself ease into your arms, and your breath, and your whispers
Tender caresses on the hollow of my neck (arching and purring deep down in my throat like your personal kitty cat..)
I never thought I could be so happy..
Never thought I'd find that missing piece of me...
Never knew someone would mend my broken wings
Take the time to get to know me through and through
I pinch myself, but I don't wanna wake up
Don't wanna hurt
Don't wanna be alone...
And as long as we're both holding on tight
The love we feel surpasses the darkness of night...
So many words, so many thoughts.. all condensed down into three
I love you.
-Saiai, written on 1.12.01

(na no da?)

3:31 pm - New beginnings
A new journal, a different purpose.

After fanfiction.net decided to take down all stories with a rating of NC-17, I decided to take down my writings... and thus the creation of this journal. Hopefully this is going to encourage me to write more often since I have an easy place to put it all and get comments on it (hopefully).

So.. if you're reading this, thanks!!


current mood: creative

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